Walking Day One

After dinner Jesse, Jacob and I went for a walk. It was a nice 30 minute walk over to the park and back again. However, Jesse walks too slow for what I am wanting to do. So I may be going in the evenings, after dinner, before it starts getting dark but when its nice and cool out.

I made lasagna for dinner. I also made Jesse's birthday cake (I will be taking a picture and posting it). It it two cakes with a chocolate mousse filling. It doesn't look to pretty but I think it will taste really good.

I have done good on the calories today. With everything today (including the cake I am going to have) I am at roughly 1400 claories! GOAL!!! And I don't feel hungry. Thats the important part. Now I just need to drink so more water and I will be good to go!

a month later and...

I am still here. Just had a lot going on in the last month. Jacob's chicken pox were really mild. We just got back from southern Idaho. Went to visit family and that was a blast. Jacob did SO well in the car. I am SO proud of him. He really did well the whole trip for being in a new place and meeting so many new people.

I will be in a wedding this summer so I am starting to watch what I eat. I didn't do so well today, although I did try to eat breakfast (for some reason I was sick to my stomache). But I did track all that I ate. I want to be eating about 1500 calories and I ate 2600 (yikes!). And I didn't get in any exercise. So hopefully we will get to go hiking tomorrow.

Jess and I have been having some major problems in our marriage that we are trying very hard to work out. I even went as far as to leave him last week right before vacation (he was staying home while I went with my parents to southern id). But we have since talked about things and are both making some adjustments. I love him so much and it hurts to see us going through this.

Next week is out 1 yr anniversary. Wow.

Jacob is growing like a weed. I need to make his six month shot appointment. We have a check up the end of June.

Our lease on our current place is up in Aug and so we are trying to find a new place to live. We both really want to buy a house but that is just not going to happen right now. And thats okay. I would like to see us pay so more stuff off before we do that.

Jesse spent the weekend in Lewiston. It was a lot of fun seeing the family. Missed Jacob and Lacey tons while I was gone. Seems like Jacob got so much bigger in the few days since I had seen him. Work is going well. Still studying my numbers so I can take a test and get a much needed raise. All in all, things are going well.

Chicken Pox in my 5 month old

Thats right. We took him into the ER tonight and it looks like the onset of chicken pox. Great. And I really shouldn't be reading the internet. Because of course, even if I had wanted to get the vaccine, we can't because Jacob is under a year old. And CP is worse for infants under a year. Great... just freaking great. I am so nervous and scared and paniky. I want nothing more than to just go hover over Jacob's crib. Right now I am very thankful that his crib is in our room. I have to get off the internet and quit reading all there is to read about chicken pox.

Sicky McSickerton

My poor baby has had a fever since Thursday. It was 100.1 then so we took him to the ER. And last night we took his temp again, and it was back up to 100.2. So this morning I called the Dr and into his office we went. Other than the fever Jacob has been just fine. Still laughing, eating, having wet diapers. Nothing other than a bit of a stuff nose and the fever. So after seeing the Dr he wants to rule out anything else. So off to the hospital we go to have a CBC and urine draw. Poor little guy got stuck three times! And man did he scream. He was heard in the lobby. I am so thankful that my mom was there to help the nurses hold him. I stayed in the room and tried my best to hold back the tears. It was hard. I hate hearing the "mommy, they are HURTING me!" screams. But on the plus side, the tests all came back normal, so its just a viral infection. We just need to hope that the fever is gone by next week, if not then we have to go back in.

So about an hour after the Drs offices calls and tells me the good news they call back. They have some formula for me. I am thinking, cool, a few cans of formula, that will help. Nope! Six CASES of Similac ready to feed 2oz bottles! Sweet deal.

Jesse is also getting sick, its in his throat and chest. Now I have to work hard at not getting it.

Slept on the floor last night in Jacob's room. He didn't want to go to sleep and I was letting Jesse sleep in the bed since I am not really working now.

I sorta quit my job. I am now just on call and I am not as stressed anymore. Granted this does not solve our money problems nor does it help, but I am a much happier mommy. So we are having a garge sale this weekend in hopes to sell some things and make some good money. And Jesse will be getting a raise hopefully in the next month. He also still manages to pick up side jobs. Every little bit helps.

We have an application in for Habitat for Humanity housing. I hope that this works out for us. It would be a huge help.

So thats what we have been up to.

Crazy Week

Its been one of thoes weeks. I worked all week (which is just draining). Most days Jacob wouldn't go down for a nap unless I slept with him (which is fine with me). So now I have the weekend off. Yay. Softball practice on Sunday, Jesse was off today but went and worked on some guy's boat. He makes $25 an hour for doing it, so thats nice. We still owe Avista $541. Ugh. So Jesse called and talked to them and we can pay them $135 a month PLUS our current energy bill. There is really no way we can afford that but we will do what we have to do.

Right now I am just folding laundry, changed the sheets on our bed and Jacob's bed. My mom found him nice SOFT sheets! Yay for Grandma, he is going to love them.

We are trying to rent out the spare bedroom in our house. We could use the extra money. I sat down the other night and I figured that we are $30,000 in debt. Thats horrible. Thats cars, medical, loans, credit cards and other crap. Just crap. I want to see it all gone in two years. I know thats a short time frame but I NEED it to be gone. Its ridiculas that its that bad.

So I am cleaning the house and trying to sell what we don't need, getting rid of other things. Just trying to do what I can. Budgeting. Thats a big one. And only going to the grocery store when we really need it.

Well I am off to finish cleaning my house. :)

So I was going to update yesterday but I had a major headache and was going to bed asap!

I babysat a little girl yesterday. It was fun. Totally gave me some insight on being a mom to a toddler and an infant. I can't tell you how many times I said "leave the baby alone" or "be nice to the baby". :) I have a lot more respect for moms that have their kids close in age.

We started cloth diapers yesterday. We will still do disposables at night (I've become accustomed to having my sleep back), but so far I like it. And so does Jesse. Jacob is not so sure, since now he KNOWS he is wet! I am going to go to a local store today and see about more liners and covers.

We got part of our refund back and I have already spent half of it. But I was responsible and paid two bills. :)

Softball hopefully starts next Sunday. Unless it is raining again. Stupid rain, eventhough it is better than the snow.

Jacob is growing like a weed! Thank goodness for craigslist and such. And good sales.

Not much else is going on. I have to work today. Which should be interesting. I have to work closely with a young girl who does NOT like me. Not that I am there to make friends. Yes, it does make things nicer but if I have done nothing for you to not like me than you need to get over yourself.

Mommy's Little Flirt!

Saturday March 14

Since everyone I know has a blog, I figured it was time for me to get one to.

We have been doing a whole lot of nothing. I went to work, for a few days a week. Not liking it much. I wish I was home with Jacob more. And when I went back to work, I had to stop nursing. I miss it so much. I hate that we were only able to do it for a short period of time. On the plus side, no more nursing pads.

Jesse and I discussed (and have been discussing) our marriage. I have been too distant since the baby was born. And he hasn't been involved enough. We began reading "the proper care and feeding of marriage" by Dr Laura. And so far we are both really impressed and we have seen a change in our relationship. We make more time for eachother. We are move loving towards eachother. There are many things that have improved in such a short period of time.

I can't wait for our lease to be up and for us to find a new place to live. The heating here bites. It is still SO freaking COLD! I want winter to be over and done with!

Today I bought Jacob some new cloth diapers. I can't wait to try them out!

And he has a bouncer and I (and him) are in love with it. It would be nice to be home more so he could us it more.