New Measurements at Week One

Last week

Weight 185

Bust 42

Waist 39

Hips 43

Thighs 26

Arms 12

This week

Weight 183.4

Bust 38

Waist 39

Hips 43

Thighs 25.5

Arms 12

So I haven't done the shred since Thursday, but this has totally renewed my commitment. I lost two pounds! and 4.5 inches. Next week I want to be 180 and have lost six inches total.

I did do the shred monday and today. Yesterday I tried following the more advanced girl and it wasn't too bad. However today I REALLY feel it in my legs! Which is really good. :)

Thats my glasses. Broke them on Father's Day. Oops. :)

Jacob in his new highchair (courtsey of Grammy)

Jacob in the handmedown highchair that was mine and my dad's.

Day 3 of the 30 day Shred

Are you kidding me? The exercises aren't complicated. But man is it intense!!! But I got through all 20 mins today, and as much as I didn't want to do it, I did it!

Thats really all thats going on. I can't wait to see results. :)

My legs!!! Ahhhh!

I did squats and jumping jacks the other day. Now my legs are killing me! But in a good way.

We walked to the park today. :) It was good. Hung out with Jess and Jacob for most of the day.

I am way to tired to write any more....

I just did 3 reps of squats (at this time reps for me are in 10's) and 3 reps of Jumping Jacks. I can feel the squats. Tomorrow, I should go for a walk and do some pilates.

I hate clothes shopping

4 hours of shopping for a dress and we didn't find anything that looks good on me AND fit my very large tater tots AND was in the right color. Ugh.... I am SO wiped out.

More than ever I am very committed to dropping some more baby weight. I WILL look good this summer.

We might have found a new place to live. Its a brand new 4 plex. Completely remodled. Two bedrooms, 924 square feet. They are asking $675 a month for it. This includes w/s/g and lawn care. :) So tomorrow we are going to drive by them and peek in the windows.

I have SO much to do around the house. Dishes need done, laundry, and I still need to get a workout in. Jacob is laying down fighting his last nap of the day. Jess won't be home till later tonight. He is working on someone's boat. This is good though.

I am going to make pork stir fry tonight. With water chestnuts, green peppers and carrots, and maybe even broccoli.

Off to get something done.

Crisis Averted

Jesse found his tools at work. Thank goodness!

So I posted my bedroom set on craigslist the other day and now I am not sure if I really want to sell it. We have a metal frame that our bed can sit on. And this would mean one less thing that we have to move, but I bought this set all on my own. I do like it. It has some minor damage that I didn't do to it, and I am asking $400 for just the headboard, footboard and frame. We could really use the extra money. But is it really worth it??

He is in SO much trouble!

My husband. He left his tools outside of work. Went back to get them (like three hours later when he remembered) and they are gone! We are both hoping on the positive that someone he works with took care of them for him, if that is the case he owes them coffee or something. Worse case is that they are gone for good. He has to have tools to do his $11.00 an hour job that we REALLY need. This means we will be taking out loans at the only places we can get them (which are the places that rates are like 30%). Not good. So of course now I am totally stressing. We can't afford to lose his income (seeing as its really our only income) or his job in this economy. I've talked to him about this. He needs to slow down! He gets in an all fired hurry about things and forgets what he is doing. He has already lost tools at work. And he's picked up some side jobs working on other people's boats but you can't do that if you don't have your own tools!!!

Ugh... I am really upset with him.

Bust - 42

Waist - 39

Hips - 43

Weight - 186

I weighted myself last week on Wednesday and was 187. So I have lost about a pound! Yay!

I did 20 situps ealier today. Once jacob is up from his nap, we will dance to some music, gonna try and get my heart rate up there.

I am making a baked, chicken and veggie pasta dish for dinner. Should be, if nothing else, interesting. :)

I know what I'm going to do today!!

Other than watch way too much Phineas and Ferb. :)

• Laundry
• Vacume the living room
• Sweep the living room, bedroom and kitchen/dinning room
• File papers
• Dishes
• Clean the dog's room (also known as the laundry room)
• Clean the bathroom

So far I have vacumed the living room. Still need to do the couch... but vacuming made Jacob angry so I had to stop with the floor. Now he is crying it up in his room because he is tired and won't take a much needed nap!

Oh and I do need to do some exercises.

In other news, we sold one of our tvs. Yay! Thats one less thing we will have to move!!! I would love to get rid of more stuff but thats easier said than done.

Jesse is working on someone else's boat tonight. And hopefully someone else's this week. Thats extra income for us! We only have to make one payment on the cougar this month and next month the girl we sold the car too starts making payments!! I need to hook up my printer today too, so I can do an admendment to the contract. And send that to her. What else.... I hope to hear from Fred Meyer Jewelers sometime this week. And hopefully next week the lady I babysit for will be back. Because I make good money there too. :) Its nice when our finances start looking better. I should fill out the application for food stamps too. Hey if we can qualify I am all for it!!

Veggi-ta-bles!

I made Jacob some homemade broccoli! Had to mix it with Gerber Carrots to get him to eat it, but down it went! However since he isn't eatting his veggies like he used to, he is going back to getting only veggies and no fruit for awhile.

I did a lot better today on calories than I did the day before. And I got a walk in this evening. Maybe tomorrow, weather permitting, Jacob and I will go walk the docks.

Jacob seems to be feeling much better. Oh, and he weights 17 pounds 9 ounces!

Crazy Lady!! What are you doing???

Fat girl in a little dress

That's how I felt today as I went looking for sundresses (I only need one dress) for the wedding I am in this summer. I think I need to invest in a personal trainer or something. This is HORRID! And since yesterday was what I was eating BEFORE I decided to start watching what I eat, I now see why I'm fat!!! 2700 calories for the day. Ugh. It really bothers me. I think over all what bothers me the most is that I have a closet, a dresser, two totes, a suitcase and at least one cardboard box of clothes that right now, do not fit me (and this does not include my maternity clothes). None of my bras that aren't nursing bras fit. This sucks because right before I got pregnant my mom bought me two really cute Victoria Secret bras that I can't wear any longer. Yeah I am wearing size 11/12 jeans but this doesn't do much for my self image. When I got fat in high school thats the biggest I got. And then I lost a lot of weight afterwards and went to a 5/6 in jeans (smallest I could go with the size of my hips). And stayed right around a 7/8 or 9/10. And I was happy with that. I knew I could buy shirts off that rack in med or large and they would fit just fine. I hate clothes shopping anyway and this just makes it worse. That and I wear the same stuff all week long. I only have what fits in my closet and its not much. I only have the one pair of pants that fit right, so going for job interviews is interesting. Its not so much the numbers that gets me. If I looked good and didn't have a pouchy tummy and huge thighs I would be okay. If I weighted 185 and looked good, that would be okay. But I don't!!! Not at all.

In other news, I found out that Jacob likes ice cream. :) yay!

Next spring we will start trying to baby number two. That way they will be a little over two years apart if we were to get pg right off the bat.

Supposedly my brother in law is coming up here sometime this week. I told Jess that was fine but there will be NO drinking in the house if he is here (he's an alcolholic).

Now I am off to clean my house and put a workout DVD in.

Come rain or shine

My big boy holding his bottle

I walked to the Legion! And about halfway there (I had already walked up a hill and was NOT turning back) it started to sprinkle. And by the time we left, it was raining. Grr. Stupid North Idaho weather! And of course, now its nice out. However, as soon as Jess gets home from work we will be going on a walk as a family. We might take Jacob to the park on 7th and Montana. Not sure yet.

I could of used a nap today, but everytime I went to lay down, Jacob woke up. Right now he is playing on his mat and talking to himself. And he sounds like and Ewok. :)

One year later

Since the weight is still NOT coming off (and none of my summer clothes fit), I will be walking to the American Legion (I work there two days a week) tomorrow morning to drop off a shopping list (I manage the kitchen). Its about 13 blocks from where I live. So weather provding Jacob and I will get up and go for a walk. And then I may walk again in the evening with the family or a solo run. Depends what the weather is and how I am feeling.

In good news my calories are getting down there and I am not feeling hungry at the end of the day. I bought a bag of hersey kisses for when I am craving chocolate. I can have 9 of them. Which is more than I thought I was going to get to have.

Saturday was Jesse's and I first wedding anniversary. It was a nice evening. We are getting along much better. We have set aside time to talk to each other about anything the other person has done to bother us. I think this is helping in keeping the lines of communication open.

Well I am off to get cleaned up and go to bed! Night!

When it rains is pours, and then there is a rainbow

Last night I discovered $87 in overdraft charges on my bank account. Are you freaking kidding me??? Then before I went to bed (at 12:30) I checked Jacob (like always) and he was burning up. Not wanting to wake him, I used the paci thermometer that we have. 103.4! So Jess and I work him up to take his temp up the bum, and it was 101.9. So into the ER we went.

Well after he was poked and prodded like no other, we were sent home (4:30am) and told to follow up with our doctor in the morning. So after less than 4 hours of sleep both Jacob and I are awake and trying to figure out when we are going in to the Dr.

And I got my account straight. I was not the one who did the overdrafts (not my fault), it was a banking error and so the fees were reversed. :)

Also we found out that Jacob has an ear infection. Thats why his white count was 15,000 (a bit on the highside for infants but still within normal). So now we are getting his Rx filled.

Tmobile rocks! I wasn't going to have enough this payday to pay them and get Jacob's Rx. So I called them and they asked if we could put $20 towards the bill, I said yes and I can pay the remainder on the 18th without any penlties!

That makes me happy! So it was a rough night but today wasn't too bad. Just stressing how we are going to pay everything. Ugh.

Adventures in babysitting

I did get a job! Its one that I interviewed for last week. I will be babysitting a six month old baby girl along with Jacob. And I have no idea what I am getting paid! :) I am supposed to be there in an hour and 15 mins (and I am still in my pjs!) so Jacob is down for a mini nap now. Its better than no nap.

And I will still be going to my Fred Meyer interview on Sat.

What else is going on.....

I am writting an essay to win a $675,000 house on 11 acres. :) Really excited about this.

Jesse is working tomorrow. Which is good because he took a half day on tuesday so this will make up for it and make bill paying that much easier next payday.

I had 1545 in calories yesterday! No walking got in but that is just half of my diet. Tonight will be the real test, I work and there are always so many goodies there that look so good!

Well I should go get out of my pjs and get some housework done.

Eating while board = not good

I am up to 950 calories for today (I am trying to stay in between 1300 and 1500). But I'm not hungry. I just keep snacking while I am board. This is a bad habit I am working on changing.

I did have a salad for lunch so that was good. And I just used some salt, pepper and red wine vinegar for dressing. So what I need to do while Jacob is sleeping and I am watching Dr Phil is sit ups or squats. Something. And I am going to try and go for a walk tonight. What I would like to do is walk in the morning with Jacob and run in the evening by myself. We'll see.

I do however have to say that I am very proud of myself. I am working on my eating and trying to better reconize hunger signs. And drinking lots of water.

I joined my local MOMs club today. :) Looking forward to being out more and meeting new people.

So Dr Phil today is about playing too many virtual computer games (ie. world of warcraft). I feel for a lot of the women on my message board that are going through this with their husbands. I enjoy my computer games (not that I can play them, I need a new computer or more memory) but this is too much!

Off to workout and clean house... whichever comes first.

Job interview!!!

For Fred Meyer Jewelers!!! Which I have done before (with Jc Penny) and LOVED!!!

The only downside is its in Spokane Valley. But its at the valley location and NOT Northtown (which is like another 45 min drive from the valley and the valley is only 30 mins from where I am).

And because its in Washington I have to make at least $8.55 an hour. So it would likely be that AND commission!

So lets all hope I get this because I do want it bad!!!

Update to my last bloggie post

Well Jesse ended up taking a half day today. Not only because of us fighting but also because we had some major stuff to finish up with selling the cougar. (I will get into that in a bit)





We sat down and really talked. Without yelling. That was nice. We went over what each one of us expect out of the other. And we have decided to set aside some time each night to go over whatever the other person has said or done to upset us. This is good because Jesse tends to let things go for so long and then he blows up at me and I didn't even see it coming. We both say we are commited to the marriage and really want it to work. Keeping the lines of communication open is going to be very important. I think right now we are both feeling better.





Okay on to the cougar. First off I am SOOOOOO glad its GONE! We are selling it to a young lady who is just in love with the car. She is making payments to us and we are in turn making the payments to the bank the loan is through. But the state of Washington is all sorts of screwy on their titling. So we were dealing with that. But its all good now.





I have to say, if I was rich I would probably spend all my money at Babies R Us and Barnes & Noble. Just so everyone knows that. :)





I didn't get a workout in at all today. Just busy with everything else. I did eat breakfast but missed lunch. :( And I still have no idea what we are doing for dinner. Ugh.





Off to get something done or something like that.

Sara and Jacob

Divorce was not supposed to be an option

Its sad but we are starting to talk divorce. We are four days away from being married a year and divorce is starting to become an option.

He just doesn't get it. I get so irritated that he can't handle simple tasks. I cleaned my desk before I left on vacation. Told him his car payment needed mailed (I was gone Friday through Wednesday), filled it out, and put it in the envelope and left it on the desk (along with his mother's mother's day card). I told him to mail it. Got back Wednesday evening... and guess what?? It hadn't been mailed. I wasn't asking for a lot.

And it seems like all we do is fight. He feels like he can never make me happy and all I want from him is the truth. And I can't even get that. He lies to me. Not even about big things. But no matter, he still lies to me.

So I have to figure out if he is going to work at this with me or if I should just throw in the towel now before I start to hate him. If it ever comes to that.

And more than anything I want him to trust me. He doesn't. But if you screw him, he just keeps coming back for more. And the lying. He doesn't trust me so he lies to me. This breaks my heart more than anything. His actions say you are good enough to fuck, but not good enough to be trusted with my heart. I have never lied to him, I have never mislead him and until now, I have never not trusted him (even though he has done things that don't deserve me to trust him).

He is on his way home now to talk about this. We are looking very hard at not being together anymore. (btw, I HATE dating)